Changeable, like the weather.

Well, hello once again. Today, Tuesday. The sun shines, it feels warm outside. Yet again the realisation hits me square on the chin... I want to live in a warm country, one that is warmer for longer.. more than three months of a year anyway! People smile more, there is a small and excitable voice at the back of my mind whispering 'party'! I want to invite people over, cook and drink with them (or should I say for them? Not into cannibalism), organise mass gatherings on the beach, go walkies in the woods. I want to be friendly and sociable. And so does everybody else. I drank a bottle of beer with lunch, I don't even like beer, now I want more. If only I lived in Italy, perhaps the ligururian coastline? Good weather has a profound effect on my soul, my attitude, everything really. In the winter months (generally late september until April) the urge to lock my doors and hibernate is huge, the thought of entertaining a phonecall leaves me cold, let alone entertain a dinner party! Christmas is a welcome treat for the children, but the whole 'lets congregate in a family members house and eat and drink til we puke' thing frightens the f**k out of me! How boring and false. And forced. I guess I am a 'fair weather friend'? Well thats absolutely fine by me!

Well hello. Today the 1st of April... it brings many thoughts. I know of a certain un-nameable crinkly faced and less than amiable twisted middle earth troll whose birthday falls on the 1st of April. I am not sure whether the joke was on her, her parents, or mankind. Luckily I have managed to free my life of her, it took a while, and I tried on more than one occasion to flee the perils of her stirring and manipulating, it was as if she had cast a spell of superglue, mixed with fake friendship, deceit, and shit. A wicked web weaved by a headcrunching 'she -spider'! Oh, how I can laugh.. now. Have you ever been thrown into the company of someone you know is less than savoury (by the cruel and lesson teaching hand of fate) and known immediately that you have to flee asap? For reasons truly beyond my control it took years before i managed to shake her off. Anyway, i dont want to give her too much energy, and in all honesty she was a gift, disguised in a rather strange package its true, but a gift nonetheless, I learnt a lot... how to be tougher, and more aware. Also I now realise I dont have to spend time in the company of someone I dont like! So today,I would like to wish her a Happy Birthday!
Isn't spring wonderful, the leaping lambs and bright yellow daffodils. The blossom laden trees in pastel colours, the vibrant and almost eye popping green grass. The smells that fill the air, fresh and alive, the budding flowers and birth of everything. I love spring.

bye for now, a bientot, tout a l'heure...etc etc..